Dear You,
As the full moon approaches, I’ve been feeling less inclined to make this week’s newsletter informational — but more artistic. As we move into the full moon phase, I find myself reflecting on some of the phases of my life. Please enjoy these 3 poems I have poured my heart and mind into.
With gratitude,
Cameron Gonzalez
1.
The unknown was always scary to me
I suppose — in way it still is
I remember thinking that the world was so small
Like it could fit in my pocket
Who would’ve thought that all the pressure you were putting on me
Has made me this woman
We have all heard stories about diamonds forming in the rough
I think that little me
Would be proud to see her
I was always anxious
Picking at my cuticles
Trying to find a place for my mind to rest
The future is a blank slate
You were never scared of life
Just the idea of what it could take
But what could it give?
2.
I woke up this morning and felt that all the trees were rotting
Lack of air circulation
I used to escape into novels beneath these trees
I used to wait to see the baby peckers
Hoping one would stare at me
Today, I feel they have ceased to exist
With a blindfold on I try to take in my surroundings
When the rest of your senses are numb
You can hear the silence of sound
In my time off all one I hear myself
Yes, I can throw a mean pity party
Yes, I make decisions and you disagree
Yes, I’ve done things that lead to conflict
I said I didn’t mean it
But maybe I did
These are some realizations that came to me
Along with sudden discontent and impatience
Along with feeling of self-hatred
The killdeer landed on my shoulder and whispered
“No need to rush.”
3.
Birds always fly without fear of their fate.
They move through the tunnels of wind no matter the many things that can break their wings and swallow their feathers.
The fly without thinking if they will end up in the mouth of a bird much bigger than them.
A falcon perhaps?
They migrate without wondering if they will be found injured on a porch or deck!
They fly and do not wonder if they will become a cat’s breakfast!
I too choose to fly despite the dangers.
Cameron Gonzalez is a self-taught tarot reader and artist. She is very passionate so made a substack for a place to share her passion. Forever exploring the elements of life and spirit. Instagram: @ CammieGonzalezTarot